I’ve not been well for some time now and I’m afraid things might be turning out worse than I thought. I don’t want to worry anyone, truly. I have a lot of stuff I need to think about. I just wanted to put it out there before I pull another disappearing act.
I used to be more active in the blogosphere. I’ve met tons of fantastic and interesting (and some downright dubious) folks who spin magic out of the seemingly mundane.
In a very real sense, I was brought up here on WordPress, for seven years nurtured by this quilt patchwork community of rebels, teachers, learners, listeners, poets, free spirits and free thinkers; fangirls and fanboys of all spectrums of the fandoms. Brave people who dare to speak their minds and bare their necks as they open up on trauma, and also those who hold their cards close to their chest.
Writing here has saved me. Cheesy? Pfft, yeah sure. But it does nothing to diminish this truth. I found myself banging away on the keyboard again after my last hiatus, and feck, it felt like I could breathe again after centuries of lungs compressed into matchboxes.
I met a few new bloggers this time around and I find I’m richer in their company (I don’t want to name names at this point in time, but I hope you know who you are). Okay, one name. Thomas, I met you first all those years ago on your Enrique post. Thanks for being such a freaking generous badass.
It’s my sincere regret that I can’t keep up anymore.
As much as I’ve benefited from all this content, I noticed I’m less present in real life, leaning on this blog too heavily.
And I don’t regret a bloody second, mind you.
I need some space to roam around without worrying if I’m oversharing (99.9% of the time), if I’m witty enough, or if I’m swearing too much or if I shouldn’t at all, typos, post lengths, to that perfect featured image. Though I have to tell you, I’m relieved to finally settle on this current theme setup, a treehouse-den ambiance.
I’ll be lurking around, so not completely gone. I’ll be back, of course. It’s simply a question of when. Thank you guys for reading all this stuff I write in crayon.
9 responses to “To my readers: This is goodbye for now”
Devina! Oh why didn’t I see this earlier? I wondered why you stopped posting for a while, had to look into your site thinking perhaps I might have just missed a post or two – but to find this!
I pray a speedy recovery for you. Hang in there, a tough soul you are. Will be here when you get back! Cheers to you!
Thank you so much, Pauline. I … I try to be strong, I do, but it’s so damn hard. Eh, I’ll swing it out and see. Again, merci 🙂
M.affairs is me, it turned out that at last, its also in print now, crawl by sicko; on your way out and dont end up dead on my porch.
You know, you’re something else. *shakes head* Thanks, Jam.
Take the time and space you need. All the best.
Thank you 🙂
I wish you the best of luck and a full and speedy recovery.
A great thank you from my heart, Jeanne. All the best to you as well 🙂
You are very welcome. Get well soon.