I’ve not been well for some time now and I’m afraid things might be turning out worse than I thought. I don’t want to worry anyone, truly. I have a lot of stuff I need to think about. I just wanted to put it out there before I pull another disappearing act.
I used to be more active in the blogosphere. I’ve met tons of fantastic and interesting (and some downright dubious) folks who spin magic out of the seemingly mundane.
In a very real sense, I was brought up here on WordPress, for seven years nurtured by this quilt patchwork community of rebels, teachers, learners, listeners, poets, free spirits and free thinkers; fangirls and fanboys of all spectrums of the fandoms. Brave people who dare to speak their minds and bare their necks as they open up on trauma, and also those who hold their cards close to their chest (as you can imagine I count myself in their ranks).
Writing here has saved me. Cheesy? Pfft, yeah sure. But it does nothing to diminish this truth. I found myself banging away on the keyboard again after my last hiatus, and fuck, it felt like I could breathe again after centuries of lungs compressed into matchboxes.
I met a few new bloggers this time around and I find I’m richer in their company (I don’t want to name names at this point in time, but I hope you know who you are). Okay, one name. Thomas, I met you first all those years ago on your Enrique post. Thanks for being such a freaking generous badass.
It’s my sincere regret that I can’t keep up anymore.
As much as I’ve benefited from all this content, I noticed I’m less present in real life, leaning on this blog too heavily.
And I don’t regret a bloody second, mind you.
I need some space to roam around without worrying if I’m oversharing (99.9% of the time), if I’m witty enough, or if I’m swearing too much or if I shouldn’t at all (I adore cussing among friends), typos, post lengths, to that perfect featured image. Though I have to tell you, I’m relieved to finally settle on this current theme setup, a treehouse-den ambiance.
I’ll be lurking around, so not completely gone. I’ll be back, of course. It’s simply a question of when. Thank you guys for reading all this stuff I write in crayon.