It’s 4 o’ clock, are you serious? (Includes a few insights on The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky)

Well, that’s the longest title I’ve ever permitted myself to publish. At some point I will begin to ramble, but perhaps you might not realize that I usually do this because I edit to make it look less obvious. My lips are smarting from the pain as I bite the peeling skin. That sounds gross. It is right to say my lips are ‘smarting’? See? I have already began, but I am not going to edit and if I remember I’ll tell you why it’s important to me.

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via Goodreads. I chose this cover instead of the original because it has Emma Watson on it.

Okay, I have sleeping problems and I won’t say it’s insomnia because well I’m distracted all the time by one thing or another but I could rest if I let myself. What usually steals my sleep is reading. Since I got the kindle app I’ve lost so much of it. I can’t bring myself to delete it. I think I need professional help. Now, I’ve been reading The Perks of Being a Wallflower on and off for almost a week and a half but it’s gotten so much interesting that I stayed up till this ungodly hour reading it half way through. Trouble is that the best time to talk about a book or movie is just right after reading or watching it so I might not be as exact as I intended earlier.

Charlie. He is, to slap a label on, this introvert that I believe gives me an inside look on how some introverts think. He really gives a lot to the details that I would fling over my shoulder because of the irrelevance of it at that given moment. Charlie makes me see how much there is to a simple action, a simple inaction, how much there is to see at family gatherings during holidays and when you think about it sometimes you wonder why you weren’t in some daytime television drama series. There is so much in everything that it amazing till it hurts your head.

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I am …

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..… feeling hot and sticky right now and I hope for home.

………..… tired and need sleep.

 …………….. … a little confused and need to meditate.

…..… hurting inside.

… funny and always up for a good laugh.

… itching to travel.

… insecure

…confident.

… conflicted.

… wanting to write a proper post.

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Yet another night (and an apology to you my darlings!)

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Hi everyone, you might have noticed the large space between my posts, that’s a bit of good and a bit of bad. Time has gotten scarce if you know what I mean, and I want to apologize for all the the comments that have gone unanswered from me but I promise I’ll get to them as soon as I can. The following is a dialogue between Gale and I that I’d like to share. This had taken place late last year. I think you guys might come to love her as much as I have ;)

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December 22, 2012

I’m not what could be described as an insomniac but the fact is that I can’t seem to find sleep at night. No, scratch that. I just realized the truth while writing this. I stay up at night because I find it quite easy to fight the urge to sleep, deliberately resisting and not embracing it when the opening presents itself. It’s become a habit over the years and it continues to be.

The result is that I wake up really late, before when I used to go in around 2 AM I’d wake up later at around ten (days when I don’t have school) and lately I’ve stretched my hours to 4 AM and at the latest to 8 AM but that hardly happens, thank the gods, and naturally the result is that I wake up even later. My current latest is 2 PM. Yes, it is hell when I have to go to classes (a max of 5 to 4 hours of sleep). Why don’t I go in early on those days? Simply because of my condition’s status being of a habit, but when I really put my mind to it I hit the hay early enough I do (very seldom).

Writing this now it is 1:28 AM and I will get to publishing it hours from this moment. I’m outside on one of the smaller chairs of settee with my socked feet propped up on one of those small highly portable wooden coffee tables and by back to my grandpa’s room. I can hear the distinct rattling of his little fan. I kind of reek of mosquito repellant, the socks help even though it’s rather warm, it should keep the suckers off. I’ve my father’s blue St. Martin cap on my head and I’m anxious that he’ll walk out any moment now as he’s apt to do every now and then.

Another fact: I’m not supposed to be out of my room at these hours, but it’s very convenient.

  • Because my room doesn’t have an outlet that’s compatible with my laptop’s plug
  • The loo (note: loo isn’t in the American dictionary or at least their vocabulary – Sincerely, the red squiggly line) is closer, speaking of which I’m leaving writing to visit …

Okay, I’m back … now where was I ?

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A meaningless rant of an insomniac

Today I will tell to you a brief tale – a true one, mind you – about a girl who was tasked to get goodies on Amazon. (Click the “Read more” I you’re up to seeing a hot, but decent, pic of Zac Efron)

This is her story. * Cue the Law and Order: SVU “DUM DUM” *

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She was badgered (especially by her younger sister and a friend) to change this and change that. This movie now, another later. This all happened mostly on the very last day that she was supposed to press the shiny red button to finalize things, but she was okay with that … until it got really unbearable. There was a problem, and Huston hightailed out to Alaska. The problem was she had not slept a wink in almost twenty hours (she could blame herself a little for that) and not a drop of coffee because she was trying to get clean off the stuff. One could only imagine what that was like, unless you had a similar unfortunate situation then you’d know exactly.

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Friday night happenings: A can of beer and a cup of coffee later …

This loopy fish will be explained later.

Okay, a ginger beer (non-alcoholic) because I don’t do the hard stuff, heck not even the soft ones. So what if it has around 37 kilo calories (3 700 cal)? I’m going to die a happy woman, right after running all the way to Timbuktu, just kidding :P

Right this moment I’m hyper, like Alvin and the chipmunks on coffee hyper. I’ve been talking to my co-worker for 10-15 minutes, recounting the crazy and stupid things I did during my last years at high school with my friends at top speed and with an equal amount of high. I’ll talk about my  experience with caffeine in another post.

Earlier tonight I was listening to Michael Buble’s “Have a Holly Jolly Christmas”, yes, in August. Actually I listen to his Christmas CD throughout the year because I just love it … and well it’s the only album I have of his, but that will change when I’m filthy stinking rich I’ll buy every album of the BeeGees, The All American Rejects and Mozart and a few others. The day will come.

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Saturday morning happenings: A post overdue

I’ve a nasty headache coming on and right about now I’m wishing I’m five again, and I’m feel like kicking myself in the behind. Why? I haven’t been eating right (not that I don’t want to I just don’t feel like stomaching anything, I’m not anorexic if anyone was wondering). Back then (when I was 5) I just stood there watching life go by so slowly, like swimming through sweet sticky honey, with my sippy-cup in hand and was blissfully

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ignorant of all the bad things that were happening all the time + no responsibilities except for packing up the toys when I was finished playing. It was just a wish and in retrospect running from responsibilities is so uncool. As for kicking myself, it’s nothing new and I’ll talk about it in my next post.

The following was supposed to be posted on Saturday but things happened and stuff got changed; life happened. So I’m writing it now just as I wrote it Saturday morning.

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It was a dark stormy night (technically it’s morning, 1:33 AM to be precise but it was dark and certainly stormy) and I got a room for myself, a rarity (if I explain why it’ll take forever and also because I’m a little lazy).

As I write this, I sit on my bed directly opposite an almost full length mirror (that’s older than my days on this earth) covered by a sheet. Why? Lightning was making its dazzling appearance rather frequently (along with its buddy Thunder) so it wouldn’t reflect and blind us (I kid, it wouldn’t … or I don’t think it would because I’ve seen it reflected before) but it’s just a habit, my mommy prefers it that way.

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NEW: Blog Game Award!

I was awarded just yesterday by my friend Daphne over at Evil Nymph Stuff, who was Awarded by Pudding Girl who was along the line awarded by Mrs. Hobbles who came up with this twist to the normal blog awards.

And here are the rules:

Blog Award Game: Since these awards are all about getting to know each other, fill in the blanks with things I might think/say/do in the following situations (feel free to make these up):

The craziest thing I’ve done is _____________________________________

I can’t believe you _____________________________________________

My favorite thing is ____________________________________________

The last time I was at a psychiatrist they ______________________________

I’m sorry, I __________________________________________________

Of course anyone is welcome to play this game on your own blog with your readers. Send me the link and I will try to guess what you might do. Thanks again!

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Let the fun begin! Weeeeee!

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A little peek out of my cave

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Hi y’all! I am so sorry for posting so infrequently for the same reasons I’ve said in an earlier post somewhere, school and that pesky habit that time has: flying out the window faster before you can say Superman’s red underwear (I think it’s red … somebody please correct me if I’m wrong). I’m yet to learn how to go to bed early, I end up being amongst the walking dead the next day, thank heavens for caffeine.

I haven’t any time to post any day so I’ll be getting rid of my “Post a Day 2012″ button and get me a “Post a Week 2012″ one because that’s what I am aiming to do, at least once a week I will post some thing instead of the barge of re-blogs (which will continue, sorry, but there are some things that are meant to be shared and I can’t pass up a good post).

I’ve been expressing myself with the help of my Crayola Tower I invested on a month or two ago, but little brother and sisters got the best of me

The Pink Ballerina

The Pink Ballerina.

and I let them use it now so some of my precious crayons were rubbed mercilessly flat, if I post a picture of their present condition I think you might cry like I did. The point: I will also post my drawings for you guys to see. Here’s one now ->

I finally saw Thor and Captain America (I know, I know, where in the world was I? I don’t know) A few scenes in Captain America made me cry. Who in the world cries while watching a movie of a Marvel comic? Me. I’m weird that way, I don’t know if I’m the only one … The part I really cried for was when Tommy Lee Jones, who played Col. Chester Phillips, when he threw that inactive grenade at Steve Rogers (our hero, played by Chris Evans) who threw himself on top of it! How selfless was that? With no delay what so ever, tears sprung from my eyes and I had to actually pause the movie to have a good cry before resuming. That part and the almost ending when he was going to crash with the plane, pure heart ache.

What I loved about the Captain was that even after his transformation he stayed true to himself; humble, kind, brave and a patriot to the icy end. The scientist who made the formula had seen all of that in Steve, he wasn’t going into the fight for the glory but for his country and to stop the bullies from taking advantage of of the defenseless, he knew how it felt. Chris Evans portrayed Johnny Storm in The Fantastic Four, I re-watched Silver Surfer just to refresh my memory and I will tell you it was a total 18o degrees from Captain Steve Rogers!

I haven’t seen a Marvel Comic book in Guyana before but it would be cool if I got my hands on some Spiderman and Capt.America. Today CSEC (Caribbean Secondary Education Certificate) Maths was written and like last year it was raining cats and dogs (never found out why people say that but it sounds cool) and I can remember I could hardly hear myself think. These pics below are the cards I got my mom and Gran for Mother’s Day, what would we ever do without our mommies?

I’ll say sorry again for not posting as much we’d both like, to be honest I wonder why I even have any followers at all but you dudes and dudetts (I know that’s not really a word but I like it)  all rock! Thank you all for reading and commenting, I really feel so happy and satisfied that someone has found my ramblings worth reading and I really appreciate it :)

 In closing, here’s a couple of links to reviews of The Avengers and Captain America:

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Random Word Ramble Wednesdays

Hey guys, I’m late. Again. And I’m thinking it should be Random Word Ramble ‘Thursdays’ instead. Any-who, with no further ado this week’s word is:

Dotty- slightly mad or eccentric (Page 277 Compact Oxford Dictionary and Thesaurus, Third Edition)

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“Positively dotty, I say,” came the not-so-soft whispers from one of the women slathered in gaudy paint and stuffed in a frilly and very uncomfortable looking peach dress who sat on one of the weathered benches not far from the shady tree under which she sat. Oh, Loretta had heard them all right and truth be told, she knew that they were referring to her. They weren’t the first to say that about her nor will they be the last.

Does wanting to be the person who she wants to become make her insane? It is a fact that the medical profession has been dominated by men but doesn’t she have the right to believe that she can be as good as they are? Doesn’t she have the right to pursue her dreams, an opportunity to at least try? She’ll be a doctor if she wishes it, who are these people to tell her what and what not to do, what right have they to poke their unwanted over-powdered noses into her personal business? Continue reading